I am me

"I know I'm quiet, and I know I should speak more, but if you knew the things that are in my head most of the time, you'll know what it really meant; how much we're alike and how we've been through the same things..." and even when we are not going to the same place... I think you're cool, and I admire you because you are you and it is so right. 

But I rarely can speak my thoughts to people... 'cause I am a disaster talking and being with people.
I hate people. I'm scared and sick of people... sometimes I just want to stay in my room all day, all week, all time (yes, "all time" fuck you grammar nazis) Oh!... If only they could shut their mouths, but no!... they need to talk! To feel they are intelligent! to feel they're important! to feel they're interesting! to feel they're right! to keep their stupid paradigm about the world-- That kind of people just bores me 'cause as they go on and on and on... I'm dying to tell them that they are stupid and unimportant and boring and wrong... and that that's not the way that things are..., but I don't do it... and I'm quiet... 'cause I'm a nice person... but sometimes I get tired of world's stupidity.

Sometimes all I want is to be by myself because I think I deserve more than what people do for me.

Sometimes I want to be alone because I think I deserve no love whatsoever 'cause I'm not really a nice person. Sometimes I think people do not deserve to be near someone like me because they don't appreciate it...and that's why I hate people.

I hate people because they treat me like people and I am NOT people

I am me, and I am different from everything and everyone. 

I have this personality, and it is what it is... it's not good nor bad. It's just the way I am.

I'm not doing anything wrong, and I'm not hurting anyone, 

so why should I stay with people who make me feel like that?
I accept things as they are, and things are not good or bad. They are what they are. You choose whether to accept them or not. You can like them or not. You can love them or not.
Just stop making a big deal out of it!  What's the point of having an opinion about everything!!
I mean It's not gonna change anything 'cause things will keep being what they are.
What's the point of making someone feel like they are wrong when they're not just to make you feel right!
If you don't like it just go away. Shut the fuck up and just get out the way.

So yes, maybe I should speak more. 

Maybe I should share more.

Maybe I should care more
Maybe I should feel more.

But I choose not to.

'Cause when I speak, and I share, and I care, and I feel

They don't see it. They hate it. They think I'm people.

And I am not people. 

I am me and if you cannot see that, then just get away from me 

I am tired of picking people who treat me like I'm nothing
when I'm everything.

We accept the love we think we deserve.

I deserve more... I always give more... but right now... I have nothing left to give.

And even when I could be hidden in my bedroom

I stay... cause that's all I have... I'm here.

I'm here for you even though I'm useless.

You can take it or not, but that's me... I'm the one who has and will always be there.
I AM INFINITE.